Key to the wandering me
In your hand I give
Control my soul as you want
I have lost it all.
Hold me in your arms
While I take my time
To come out of the box
Designed by your lovely thoughts.
Blue or pink, Black and white
You gave me colors
Now, you made me color blind.
Can’t you accept me
As you were the one to start this
You are making me realize
is a mistake of my life.
A stranger planned to come close to me
You became my everything
You’ve made me cry
More than you’ve made me laugh
Caring for you,
is a mistake I cannot reverse back
Now, all I got is your photograph.
Fill me in with your words
Take me everywhere you go
Carry me in your mind always
You’ve ignited the spark
I had hidden from long
Even I didn’t know where it was?
Take my hand in yours
Look into my eyes
Say, “You mean everything you do”
This can happen only in my dreams
Now you are not even looking at me!!!
What wrong did I do?
Only I want to be close to you!!!
If you really regret being nice
I will take back my steps
The fondness I tried to find in you!!!
I’ll prevent my eyes to look in your way
I’ll struggle to terminate my affection which you raised
I’ll try to arrest my hands in invisible cuffs
So I don’t message you anymore
All I have to do is kill my tenderness
And, walk out of the door
Which is not meant for me.
I have no place to go
Feel me almost feeling less
I have no place to run
Stay away from me.
Your magnetizing effect
Please don’t take away
Whatever I have left.
You’ll make me statue
The one which can only talk and listen
Cannot be frank
Cannot smile and blush
on your romance all the time.
Our unlike charges may attract
But I cannot overcome my last experience
I will again be left scattered into pieces.
So keep your feelings to yourself
I cannot believe it to be true
Leave me alone with my beloved books.
People surround me
Calling my name
I upset another friend
When I choose to go somewhere else
They always want me to be with them
I am loved by all
Yet, if someone asks
What am I writing about?
I cannot tell the truth
or the reason for my disappointment
They should not know the real me!!!
The real me is broken
I don’t actually know what I really want
My anger takes over my mind
This gives me something to write!!!
Sometimes I am cool, as perfect
Other times I am upset, as destroyed
The influential life has turned me upside down
I am trying to get everything right
by being casual all the time !!!
I maybe wrong ones
But, not always!
You may want to keep me trapped
To cut my wings so I cannot talk more
As per you have decided, like always!
You misunderstand me
So let me go, Let me be free
You can live alone,
As you have been alone always!
The sparkle that I carry
Which you make me hide
This may not be amazingly written
My shimmer is trying to reach from inside
Expectation kills, but obsession murders.
My best friend had promised me to take me to an art festival.I love arts, artifacts and that place is fabulously famous. I haven’t been there before so I was very excited to go. I had early morning lecture and so I woke up early in the morning even before the dawn. Took all my makeup stuff in the bag, my pink dress, notebook etc. I ran directly to my gym. I reached even before it was opened. After my gym session, I changed my clothes and rushed towards the railway station.
Then, as I opened my bag to find something to eat, it occurred to me that I forgot my lunchbox and box of fruits at home in a hurry. I did my makeup on the train, (yes it was awkward, but I had to due to a shortage of time). Ready to fiddle through my day, I met my friend and she said, she can’t come with me because she has to go meet her boyfriend. Even she had just met him a day before, I don’t know what was so urgent.
I didn’t have any problem, of course. But, what hurt me was her priority was him even though I had accompanied her whenever she had asked me to even if I was busy. I mean, this may sound childish to you all, but I am a kind of possessive person, not a crazy. I can understand. Since it was the last day of the festival. She just didn’t care how much I wanted to go to the fest. And, I was so angry and upset. I didn’t wait for a second after the lecture, not even to say her a goodbye. I wasted my whole day thinking the kind of priority she was to me. But, now I can’t be the same person to her. I just cannot get this out of my mind. I don’t care to go to the festival. I only care the way she treated me. She wasn’t even sorry for it. I think, now on she’ll see how cruel I can be when I change my priority.
Rolling like a stone
I was changed into something I was not
You’ve murdered a part of me I miss
The girl who always believed.
Believed in you
When you changed me into new
I felt so refreshed
Thought you’re the special
I have waited so long.
The sadness took over
When I saw your comment on a post
You had written for some other girl
“I waited for you”
At last but not least
The story has a happy ending
When you tried talking to me
And, I ignored
As you are just a bad memory.