Key to the wandering me
In your hand I give
Control my soul as you want
I have lost it all.
Hold me in your arms
While I take my time
To come out of the box
Designed by your lovely thoughts.
Blue or pink, Black and white
You gave me colors
Now, you made me color blind.
Can’t you accept me
As you were the one to start this
You are making me realize
is a mistake of my life.
A stranger planned to come close to me
You became my everything
You’ve made me cry
More than you’ve made me laugh
Caring for you,
is a mistake I cannot reverse back
Now, all I got is your photograph.
Fill me in with your words
Take me everywhere you go
Carry me in your mind always
You’ve ignited the spark
I had hidden from long
Even I didn’t know where it was?
Take my hand in yours
Look into my eyes
Say, “You mean everything you do”
This can happen only in my dreams
Now you are not even looking at me!!!
What wrong did I do?
Only I want to be close to you!!!
If you really regret being nice
I will take back my steps
The fondness I tried to find in you!!!
I’ll prevent my eyes to look in your way
I’ll struggle to terminate my affection which you raised
I’ll try to arrest my hands in invisible cuffs
So I don’t message you anymore
All I have to do is kill my tenderness
And, walk out of the door
Which is not meant for me.
Until last week I was alright
Everything was fine
Till I came to know about you
Watching me all the time
I heard the giggles
That you like me.
I was drowned in those words
To find the truth
Now everything else in present
Inside I feel scattered
I don’t have a strong mindset
That I have lost myself
I try to find me in your eyes
To return everything of my to me.
The sea of love in which I drowned
And, the romantic rose has dried
If you keep testing my patience
You’ll see I am so much crazy
Not like the girl you know
That will make your vision hazy.
I maybe wrong ones
But, not always!
You may want to keep me trapped
To cut my wings so I cannot talk more
As per you have decided, like always!
You misunderstand me
So let me go, Let me be free
You can live alone,
As you have been alone always!
The sparkle that I carry
Which you make me hide
This may not be amazingly written
My shimmer is trying to reach from inside
If you wanna love me, love
If you wanna hate me, just hate
But, if you leave me in the middle of the sea
I’ll swim to a place
Where I won’t need you again!!!
I always fumble
couldn’t help, mumble
in my dreams
I stay up all night
or wake up violently
I want to grab my phone and call you
to talk for hours and hours
till my soul is satisfied to the deep
now it can be done only when I am asleep
I die every night
and wake up at morning
like everything is alright.
Because, I met you in my dreams
with a hope of attention
A ray of coming back to me
I was about to make a deal with a demon
to let me sleep in peace
don’t scare me
with their darkness
And your love which was hollow and empty
I begged demons
in my unilluminated sleep
to get me back on track
in the return of something
I want to erase the part of you in my memory
to steal away those times I was with you happy and merry
Demon asked me for my soul
But I couldn’t trade it
my soul loved you
I won’t share it with anyone just like it
Demon forced me to deal
to accept the agony
Sufferings was on both the sides
but, anyway I wanted to heal
Before I could utter any words of acceptance
you pulled me away
took me to the safest place
I could ever be
I fumbled stupidly
And mumbled something
Then I was awake
Sad and broken
Finding you weren’t there in reality
But you were in a part of my dream !!!