I maybe wrong ones
But, not always!
You may want to keep me trapped
To cut my wings so I cannot talk more
As per you have decided, like always!
You misunderstand me
So let me go, Let me be free
You can live alone,
As you have been alone always!
The sparkle that I carry
Which you make me hide
This may not be amazingly written
My shimmer is trying to reach from inside
If you wanna love me, love
If you wanna hate me, just hate
But, if you leave me in the middle of the sea
I’ll swim to a place
Where I won’t need you again!!!
I always fumble
couldn’t help, mumble
in my dreams
I stay up all night
or wake up violently
I want to grab my phone and call you
to talk for hours and hours
till my soul is satisfied to the deep
now it can be done only when I am asleep
I die every night
and wake up at morning
like everything is alright.
Because, I met you in my dreams
with a hope of attention
A ray of coming back to me
I was about to make a deal with a demon
to let me sleep in peace
don’t scare me
with their darkness
And your love which was hollow and empty
I begged demons
in my unilluminated sleep
to get me back on track
in the return of something
I want to erase the part of you in my memory
to steal away those times I was with you happy and merry
Demon asked me for my soul
But I couldn’t trade it
my soul loved you
I won’t share it with anyone just like it
Demon forced me to deal
to accept the agony
Sufferings was on both the sides
but, anyway I wanted to heal
Before I could utter any words of acceptance
you pulled me away
took me to the safest place
I could ever be
I fumbled stupidly
And mumbled something
Then I was awake
Sad and broken
Finding you weren’t there in reality
But you were in a part of my dream !!!
I feel a burden on me.
Like I have lost a precious key.
Some days I try loving a lot,
Some days I just get tired.
And stop trying to become the one I am not.
Though there’s smile on my face.
I behave like I am lost in space.
There’s something killing me within.
Or else, I just imagine.
I go deep in my mind.
To see what’s bothering me inside.
I see you having a talk with me.
Your eyes with a glint of shine.
I feel not to let you go.
You made me feel strong, but now I am so low.
Your voices are echoing inside my head.
Each and every word that you had said.
There is no way out of this anymore.
I am stuck inside a locked door.
Only one way that I can see.
To lay a burden on me.
So you can be free of me.
When people turn their face away.
And we couldn’t find the way.
When all our efforts goes in vain.
To bring things back again.
Even if we did nothing wrong,
People will want us to play along.
When even in spring,
Thunder strikes us.
When even in summer,
Cold surrounds us.
We lose all hopes to be loved back as before.
And, we start living indoor.
No matter how nice we try to be,
People will make us feel like a black sea.