Lame

Tender

Have you ever realized that whenever you are being good and nice to people around you and they start playing with your tender heart??? If not then see to it they don’t in the future too!!! It may be some kind of a joke and jolly, but there comes a time when they start taking you for granted.
The main reason when your own friends start to take you for granted is of the following reasons:
1. You have never taken a stand for yourself
2. Laughing at all their lame jokes
3.Considering them the important person you cannot spend a day in college
4.You have a mutual friend that you don’t like
5. Accepting all their suggestions even if they are wrong for you
6. You try not to hurt them and so start admitting all their demands even though they are a waste of time
7. You stop thinking about yourself ( we all should be little bit selfish because no one in the world will love you more than you do to yourself)
The main purpose of writing and stating the reasons are so that you never get hurt due to the expectations you keep from them to behave with you same as you do with them.
Friends come and go, if you ever notice that they are demanding a lot from you which you resist to do from the bottom of your heart then just leave and do what you wish. For example, if your friend does not want you to hang out with other people and command you to not go then just leave them alone and go where you wish to go.
Not all people are worth keeping so always keep in your mind all the friends are temporary. I think this will definitely help you to fight the bullies back and so start being selfish.

Talk to my hand

Moody

It was 3 Pm, Marie was at work and texted I love you, John.

The message was delivered and so she was staring at the screen for John to read the message and reply her back in his romantic tone of message and smileys. It was 2 minute that Marie was running out of patience and decided to call him. But, she remembered her last call to John ended up with disappointment. Marie called John frequently to talk about her day, making plans, her experiment which she does in the lab. John seemed uninterested in her topics. She also tried being romantic but it was of no use to bring the John behave like happy old days. She just didn’t know the reason behind his strange behavior. So she kept the phone down back in the drawer. Nothing can stop her from messaging her to John when she misses him so much, and this was that time. Rather than listening to his harsh tone and in hesitation. She started typing that there’s a new restaurant in downtown and they should definitely try it in evening. She pressed send option. Then again she remembered that John did not like paying bills. So she also texted him that she would be paying the bills.

It wasn’t like John was the unsuccessful person, he was one of the best business analysts. It was months John had taken Marie out for a date and Marie thought this would be the reason because he said it her once that he don’t like paying bills so cannot go out for dinner.

What kind of a boyfriend does that?

She was nervous and happy to go out with him. She was waiting eagerly at the bus stop for him. When she saw him coming. Smiling.

Ah, everything’s fine

That evening, no matter how hard Marie tried being romantic, John just dropped the topic. Eventually, Marie didn’t want to spoil the evening and so went along with his side of talks. He didn’t even wait to spend time with her. Just left.

Marie saw him going. Sadly.

Weeks passed by, Marie didn’t receive any messages from him. So it was clear like pure rain water or mirror that could reflect light or black surface that could absorb whole heat that John has lost interest in her.

She just didn’t know what to do, how to bring him back!

All efforts to ignore his behavior or getting along with his loss of interest thing and forgetting about him were in vain.

She just loved him so much!

One night when Marie was watching TV with her family with John dominating her mind, her phone blinked as a message is received. She checked it and a wide smile spread on her face. It was John. They talked about movies, music, work and etc for hours through messages.

Then, Marie send him a text asking what his problem was!

It was almost an hour in the argument that John denied telling her anything. That was when she quit! Stopped asking him and thought to behave as their breakup never minded her. She was enjoying her life more than she was with John.

Some weeks later:

Marie started hearing rumors about a girl who John was dating. This was a sudden shock right to her nerves, but she pretended to be as cool as ice on her head would be. Something was cracking and shouting inside her that still, she is struggling her feelings for John, he has set out with another girl so soon like she mattered nothing to him from the start and all his romance was fake, on the outside, she was smooth as a music.

She prayed for all the rumors to be fake. To her horror, one day she finds out she was absolutely wrong.

Then she realized that John was actually in love with this another girl and this was the reason he denied telling her why he was a changed man to Marie. Why he cannot be a normal boyfriend and love her like she wanted him to do. All her trust in love and magnificent hope for getting back in life as she was before vanished. The person whom she loved most, did everything for his happiness never ever bothered about her feelings.

All she could think about was I can never be in love with someone. But, I’ll never spare this man for hurting me, for not taking care of me, leaving me to rot in my mourning period.

—-xxx—-

Marie had become a successful researcher. It was cold evening when she was walking back home from work and on her way she saw couples holding hands, hugging under a shade of the tree where no one can see them. Now she found it very creepy. She can never think about this ever, also she hated her old self when she gave more importance to others than herself which was the main reason for her low confidence.

Later that evening she posted a photo on Instagram with her colleagues having waffles at a famous snacks store just opened in her city. John was one of her followers to like it. Well, she was obviously not following him back.

Her mobile blinked a text as she was going to bed. It was John.

You look beautiful in the photo. The number was not saved in her phone, but she could see his display photo and figured out it was him.

The very nice thing that she did was to delete that freak’s message and went to sleep calmly.

Moral: The only thing that Marie wanted was to be kind and not to lose her anger and friendship to John, she thought it might be easy to stay friends. But, the more she stayed in his environment the more she was disappointed. Maybe Marie was too weak and emotional to move on and when you are too weak, just let the person go on his way and stop being kind to them. Behave the way they did to you. Make them realize that they are also unimportant for you as you are to them. In short, being kind is not an option for all situation, there has to be some roughness in you to handle such circumstances.

Help me go !

Missing

I tried a lot

But, you won’t leave

You are present in everything

I see your photograph

I do is imagine all day

There is least I can say

Help-help me-me go-go

Help-help me-me go!

Will you please take mercy?

I haven’t done any wrong nor good

So turn around and have a look

I need a little care only from you

Take my hand and make me believe

Or at least you can

Help-help me-me go-go

Help-help me-me go!

Even if we ever meet

You’ll keep quiet as you have always been

And, I will speak a lot as I always do

Till then nothing will change

Nor there will be any difference

So, ignore me and go on your road

I’ll look back at you with hope

Then I will realize you have no space for me

I will still think….

Help-help me-me go-go

Help-help me-me go!

 

 

 

A message to my friend

Friendship is not so simple, when I tried to keep you

It’s the most vogue category, I have ever knew

You just try to be kind, not that you are so

Try to become a person, you have far way to go

 

Call yourself tough, you too had to go rough

Being angry may be okay, but it’s not okay to be cruel

Take away your hand, give it to someone else

Don’t make them feel like you made me felt

Our unconscious mind-blank

Blank

It’s clear

I struggled it through

It left me feeling so empty

I don’t know

What’s it about?

I still  have to figure things out

We all must have experienced the time when we must have fallen in love. The time when we had lost ourselves to love them infinitely. Thinking of them in our dreams or after we wake up. Yes, I am talking about our special ones. We call them as ‘Special ones’ because they make us feel special, obviously as the word indicates. There is no one like them in our life who could love us like they do. And, also you must be remembering the day when you had a broken up with your special one. Yes, it must have taking you long time to overcome them. Some people just take forever for that. But, what we don’t realize is what made that person special was actually us !  We love someone more than ourselves, we care for them day and day out. Made them feel special too in a way they did to us like no one had ever made them feel or could not make them feel like you did, since we all have our own aura. So this eventually means that the power was inside us. We carry so much power of love, that we needed someone to share with. And, when they go away, we feel empty because they had taken some of our special power away. Don’t mourn over the loss. See this as opportunity to get recharged again. Recharge yourself with a more developed power which would be stronger than the before one. Some take this as not getting in a relationship again, not getting closer to someone again, some take it as getting rude over people or some just start loving again. Choice is yours, just remember to make sure that it develops you in all the way of your life and you are happy. At the end of the story, being happy is all that matters.

Be happy 🙂

 

 

Save it !

What do you see in my eyes ?
Let me be the one to tell you
You see my love as fake
And me as a drama queen
What you don’t realise from my voice?
That I am acting to be fine.
I never blamed you
For each and everytime
When you take my breath away
I realised
It isn’t me
But you are the culprit
For I am so lame