Lost in air!

Casual

People surround me
Calling my name
I upset another friend
When I choose to go somewhere else
They always want me to be with them
I am loved by all
Yet, if someone asks
What am I writing about?
I cannot tell the truth
or the reason for my disappointment
They should not know the real me!!!
The real me is broken
I don’t actually know what I really want
My anger takes over my mind
This gives me something to write!!!
Sometimes I am cool, as perfect
Other times I am upset, as destroyed
The influential life has turned me upside down
I am trying to get everything right
by being casual all the time !!!

Want to be free!

Shimmer

I maybe wrong ones
But, not always!
You may want to keep me trapped
To cut my wings so I cannot talk more
As per you have decided, like always!
You misunderstand me
So let me go, Let me be free
You can live alone,
As you have been alone always!
The sparkle that I carry
Which you make me hide
This may not be amazingly written
My shimmer is trying to reach from inside
Like always!

Insanity

Passenger

Insanity is a hope
that drives you crazy
It is a love
that leaves you hollow
It is all the happiness
that you need to survive
Sometimes it makes you plead and borrow.

It is incompleteness
that eats you within
It is unforgiveness
that makes you cry
It is the scream
that controls your mind
Even if you want to escape and hide.

It is limitless
that makes you do anything
just to soothe your soul
You become selfish and start to roll.
It may be for good things too
Still, it will destroy everything
Due to its endurance oversold.

You should know difference between dark and light
It is must to know the right and wrong
Hurting people or self won’t make you strong
Try to control the insanity
Only you are responsible
For your happiness in the end.

 

 

Illusional rain

Illusion

 

With each drop of water from the sky

I waited for this much longer

To escape the burning heat of light

The light that didn’t reflect from me

Just like the sorrow that didn’t want to leave

The crawling drop that falls from my skin

Feels like my body is separated from its guilt

The rainbow I want to see

Seems like an illusion of happiness

that is not visible with ease

The opaque love and care I store

Will never leave my body until the end

I hope the rain brings something good

Not only illusion for everybody else.

Commitment

Commit

I want him to be like this
I want him to be like that
He should be perfect and fair
Not a nightmare with a fine accent
My demand for my better half
He should always make me laugh.
I should lose myself in his eyes
Feel calm in his arms.
The veins of his hands should illustrate that he is strong
So I feel comfortable and safe in any storm.
My request seems to be ideal
So there can be no one like him
But, I am afraid
If I didn’t get the way I want
Exactly the one in my mind
And, same to same as I imagine
I may go crazy to compromise with others
I can’t love anyone except myself
Only for that,
I want the true love to be felt by the heart.

The bell jar

Bottle

The reasons for I blamed you
I was punched with your guilt
That you did nothing
I wasn’t blaming you for things you didn’t do
It was all cause
I needed your attention
Not whole
But tiny and small
You weren’t the same to me
I just begged to reverse yourself back
To get your ‘Focus’ is what I always called you for
Not that I wanted to be your priority
But to be someone you would never want to forget
Maybe, yes, I wanted your love at that time
You could have been nice to me
I would have accepted it as fine

Find the puncture

Puncture

My mind starts with a question

The drafts are so awful

Maybe I am filled with venture

And, I am punctured

The wind seems so bored

Rain is thirsty

Where can I run?

To rescue this puncture !!!

Wandering inside the forest of veins.

My lips smile a lot

Eyes don’t flatter with them

The struggle to survive the puncture

Seems far from possible today!

People are going insane

Wearing masks like hell

I wanna know what are they?

From inside to their puncture

But,

Still, I have to figure out my puncture.